liv2,
Thanks for the advice. Am 3 hours away from 3 full days. 5:00 p.m. EST is my target time for each day. I was given some doxepin and librium for the anxiety and restlessness and
ambien for sleeping. But when I took a librium and a couple hours later the doxepin, I felt like I was completely doped. The next morning, I didnt' want to get out of bed. But I had to come to work and dont' you know my schedule was jammed and I had to work 14 hours straight. UGH! Longest day of my life I think. My body is achy, my back is killing me, and I can't concentrate here at work. I find myself just trying to do things to pass time other then my real work. I just took a ride in my car to enjoy the beautiful weather and all I thought about while I was driving was the pills and how nice it would feel to crush a few, snort them, and feel normal again. Hopefully, that kind of thinking will be a thing of the past and my energy comes back and I feel normal again without the pills. Luckily, my supplier left the state and I have no access to any unless I want to go to a Doctor and beg for something for my back. And I just can't do that. Too embarrassed just thinking about it. Especially since I"m so close to 3 days. I"m hoping tomorrow I"m a little less antsy and my energy a little better. Time will tell. Just wish I could fast forward a couple of weeks. But I am responsible for my own situation and I guess I'm paying the piper. ( My piper is very rich by now...LOL).
Anway, thanks again. Your words lifted my spirits. Be strong and above all....be clean!!!