I have so much thats bass ackwards in my life I wont know where to start. Ive been fighting depression my whole life, Im adhd. when i was a kid i use to beg for my parents to kill me I was so miserable. Ive lost my wife and 3 kids, my company is doing really bad because I cant do paper work at all. Im so unhappy i really just want to die. Is that really so bad? I dont understand why people tell me that life is worth living??? everyday is a new day of misery and failure. At one time i had it all, money success, friends, now i have nothing but a big house thats empty. If the psychiatrist doesnt seriously give me the magic pill of life, I cant handle this.