I'm new here and I just wanted to talk to some else who has dealt with a pain killer addiction. I have been on loratab and just about any other pain killers I can get my hands on. None of my friends or family know how bad my addiction is. Please someone tell what is the best way to quit. I have a little girl and I want to be a good mommy. I have partied with just about every drug there is besides herion and crack. Now I have been thinking about trying oxy coton. Because I have heard it is really good. I have grown up with alot of family abuse and I started working in strip clubs as soon as I turned 18. I have a real job now and don't party with any of my old friends. But I cant seem to let go of the need for some type of drug to keep me happy. I almost died on a coke o.d. on my 21st b-day so I don't mess with that anymore. But I love downers..loratab,xanax,alchol,pot, etc. I have even thought about trying herion. Please if anyone has the same kind of addiction, how do I stay drug free? Or am I just bound to be a drugie for life??[:X]
9 Oct 2005
You should try suboxone (buprenorphene).It will take away your withdrawls and cravings allowing you to get your life back in order.Once you feel well enough you wean off the suboxone with little or no problems.I strongly recommend you try this... suboxone.com... Good luck..Dave
9 Oct 2005
reading what you wrote, almost had me thinking i wrote it.
exept the pot part. i have a little girl to and i'm trying to get better. i've been taking vicodin and any other painkiller for the past 5 years, exept heroin.
i'm taking suboxen now and i'm working out taking better care of my daughter and feeling normal, also guilt free!
about you wanting to try herion and oxy's? well you need to decide if you want to get clean for you and your daughter, or if your done expeirementing?
but i got to tell you if you feel like *, and you want to change your life suboxen fu*en works! its a miricle drug and it won't hurt to try! this ain't no after school speical or some sales rep making a profit this is real life biting you in the butt.
addiction is a disease and this could be part of the cure.
9 Oct 2005
Girly Girl, you said you want to be a good mommy for your kid. You won't be a good mommy on Oxy's or heroin. That's some wrong thinking. I'm in my 50's and I started on pain killers in my teens. Back then there were no Oxy's and heroin was only injectable--yuk! Do yourself a favor and just move on with your life in a forward direction--those drugs will take you backwards. Those drugs might give you a nice buzz for a while but the pain it'll cause down the road is NOT WORTH IT! Can you just picture yourself being so zoned out on dope that when your daughter needs you, you'll just be too stupified to help her? And when she asks "Mommy, what's wrong?" what will you tell her?
I was always intrigued with shooting heroin, but knowing myself, I think I would like it too much--I can't kid myself. Some thresholds in your life should not be crossed. A desire to use either of these two drugs is not a place you should go; I think you will not have control over it. Please at least listen to the wisdom of my years! Those drugs will not give you a better life and chances are if you use, your daughter may grow up to use also.
Hard facts to face, but there they are.
Good luck in making the right decision.
9 Oct 2005
DON'T DO IT. I am a chronic pain patient and it is people like you that make it difficult for me to get the pain relief I need just to function as a human being.
I have 4 herniated discs, spinal stenosis, sclerosis and major impingement of the thecal sac. Even though I can get around, I am in constant pain. Yes, I am lucky enough to be taking meds that bring down the pain level. But unlike you, I am not chasing some high. I get pain relief.
Start having some compassion for your fellow human. Stop your worthless existance. What kind of parent are you? What kind of person are you?
10 Oct 2005
listen ALAN or wolfman or whoever you are--you've crossed the line now. if you don't have an addiction or are trying to help someone with one, get off the f'ing boards. you are an angry, bitter individual and no one is going to be helped by the venom you spit out. there IS such a thing as tough love and then there is HATE and that is what you are spewing. there. you've brought out the sicilian in me. GO AWAY.
OK NOW, girlie girl, try going to a meeting. definitely check out the suboxone thing. it seems to have worked miracles for so many people. but please try a 12-step meeting b/c being able to meet and talk with others who have that same "something" inside of them that makes them ingest drugs/alchol, etc. to feel remotely normal or good is what will help you emotionally and spiritually. don't kid yourself, in some ways, your daughter already picks up on lots of things and if you continue she'll put it all together when she finds the info and words to articulate it. not to mention the danger she is in if you are high when you're caring for her. anything could happen and you run a very real risk of losing her. so let that be your motivation to get serious about getting help and going to any lengths to get it. keep writing on the boards here and ignore the assholes. you are a worthwhile human being and owe it to yourself and your little angel to be the best mom and person you can be. you lead by EXAMPLE. it's o.k. as a parent to have weaknesses, that's human, but show her how to overcome them and you will teach her how to be strong. Best to you.
"to laugh often and much, to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children, to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends, to appreciate beauty, to find the best in others, to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch... to know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded!" -Emerson
10 Oct 2005
THANK YOU TO EVERYONE THANT HAS WROTE BACK. ALAN, YOU REALLY DON'T KNOW SH* ABOUT ME OR WHERE I'M COMING FROM. I DO DEAL WITH PAIN ALL THE TIME. I HAVE SEVERE CROHN'S DESIESE BUT I ALSO HAVE AN ADDICTION PROBLEM BECAUSE I HAVE USED DRUGS TO DEAL WITH ALOT OF ABUSE I HAVE BEEN THROUGH . SO UNLESS WORKIED IN THE NASTY ADULT BUSINESS PLEASE DON'T TRY AND PREACH TO ME.I JUST WANTED TO TALK TO OTHER PEOPLE WITH ADDICTIONS AND FIND OUT HOW THEY OVERCOME THEM. MY PROBLEM IS I CRAVE THE DRUGS EVEN WHEN I'M NOT IN PAIN. BUT I GAVE MY PILL BOTTLE TO MY HUSBAND LAST NIGHT TO HOLD AND ONLY GIVE TO ME WHEN I'M REALLY IN NEED. I TEND TO JUST EAT PILLS LIKE CANDY... AT THE SLIGHTEST HEADACHE OR IF I'M STRESSED OUT. I WOULD ALSO LIKE ALAN, TO KNOW THAT I AM A GOOD MOTHER, I DO EVERYTHING I CAN FOR MY BABY DOLL AND THATS WHY I'M ON HERE. I GREW UP WATCHING MY MOTHER ALWAYS HAVE TO BE CARRIED TO BED BECAUSE SHE WAS TOO FU*ED UP.
I DON'T WANT TO BE THAT KINDOF MOTHER. I USUALLY EAT THE PILLS OR SMOKE AFTER SHE HAS GONE TO BED OR MY HUSBAND IS HOME TOO. HE DOESN'T TOUCH PILLS OR ANYTHING BUT A LITTLE POT. PLEASE DON'T JUDGE ME I'M NOT A BAD PERSON I HAVE JUST HAD A REALLY SCREWED UP LIFE. [:X]
10 Oct 2005
Alan do you honestly think us "addicts" dont feel bad enough about being addicted to this *? You honestly think her existance is worthless? I think mean souled assholes like yourself acts more worthless than someone on here whos trying get help. As I said on the last thread to you,mostpeople ended up addicted after it was prescribed to them, I dont think most of us just woke up one day saying I think I'll go get myself addicted to pain pills today. And I know people with cronic pain after the high not relief.
26 Oct 2005
Alan, I'm sorry, but you DO NOT need to be posting on this forum if that's the kind of attitude you want to have with people who are trying to better their lives. I have read numerous posts that you have made and they are all indispicable! This forum is for "Addiction and Recovery", so what is your reason behind posting these very crude posts? And, probably 50% of the people that are on this board have or are in the same situation you are right now. If you weren't addicted to your meds, then I don't think you would be worrying so much about others! Your qoute " Stop your worthless exsistence and what kind of parent are you" was un called for. I have said enough, but keep in mind Alan, that we aren't the ones getting your meds taken from you, YOU ARE!! And,PLEASE DON"T POST if you don't have anything better to say. We are all individuals, and none of us are perfect!![:0]
28 Oct 2005
I have been reading some of the board and I didn't know where else to go. I have a friend who is addicted to percs and is also taking anti depressants. I guess it all started with his pancreas and so his doc started to prescribe them. Then he started buying them from a guy from his school and it has gone downhill from there. His family is on the brink of giving up on him which I don't understand. His mom was an alcoholic and the only reason why she stopped drinking was because of her liver. I don't know what to do. I am NOT turning my back on him or giving up on him. He is an amazing person and I know he can accomplish so much its just that this addiction is tearing him apart. I don't know what to do. I guess I'm reaching out for help. As some of you have mentioned I have been reading a little bit about the Suboxone. I guess from people who are going through it...
what is it I can do for him? I love him and want to see him get better but I feel like his family is on the brink of giving up. If anyone has any advice, words of encouragement, anything really... please help.
28 Oct 2005
look Alan i have re a bad frum of ra my lag hurt like hell all my joints hurt there days i can get out of bed is kill me to tpy this . i just try to get of my meds and i take tham like my dr said to ... and i want to some f--- up wihtdawlfor 3 week but had to go back on pain med guz the pain in my body was that bad ... so you have no right telling any one hear if thay are on drugs what you told her ..in my book you are the one who has a drug p[... what is it that your haveing to get you pain med becuz of her? next time think b4 u talk and girl i wish you the best sorry for tpy o but am in so much pain it sucks but had to say this cuz he just get me so piss
28 Oct 2005
Thank you so much. I did check out the site and sent an email. Hopefully they can help. If anyone else knows of where else I can go it would be wonderful. This helps having this forum to kind of ask for help. I haven't directly dealt with anything like this before and I'm kind of just winging it for the most part.
28 Oct 2005
FreindnNeed, Do you know how many pills your friend is on a day? The more pills he takes a day the harder it will be to wean himself down, without a dr. help. Though people have done it on thier own. His family is something you can't change. You can just let him know that no matter if his family turns thier back on him, you won't. He needs to know that. I too come from an alcholic mother and father that didn't give a * about me. I think alot of people from broken homes turn to some form of addiction. I truley belive people turn to drugs to escape something. That something just happens to be different for everyone. Good luck to you and your friend. It is a battle I haven't won yet. [:X]
29 Oct 2005
Ok, today I am for sure going to start getting serious about quiting. I don't want to be all strung out during Christmas. Yesterday I only took two loratabs. So today 1 and half. It is hard as hell to let go of two a day. Even if I do hurt I don't want to be on Tabs anymore. I know I can do this. I have been trying to sleep alot cause that is the only time I don't think about pills. I almost have to force myself to eat anymore. It sucks so fu*ing bad. I'm shakey and hot as hell. I have 8 pills left. Whatever is left after I wean down I'm going to give them to my husband to hold. Only to give me one if I'm really hurting. Do ya'll think thats smart or should I plan on never taking one again period. There was a time I could take them as needed, so could I ever be like that again?? [:X]
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