fallentim

insomnia, adhd, possible bi polar, seeing psychiatrist really soo. Horrible racing thoughts, cant get shit done because one thing leads to another... read more

insomnia, adhd, possible bi polar, seeing psychiatrist really soo. Horrible racing thoughts, cant get shit done because one thing leads to another to another, I've been seriously thinking about just ending this misery. I want help and have seen a dr for 6 yrs who is baffled by me. Med's dont seem to work on me. I dont drink or do drugs, but a friend convinced me to drink sake' with her to see if alcohol would help...she was soooo drunk, and I felt nothing at all. Meds and alcohol dont affect me, Im feeling pretty hopeless and unless this psychiatrist has some great "thing" that works for me, I swear Im outta here. I would rather be dead than live with this anymore. Im giving the psychiatrist a whirl and Im going to give it some time. Im not unreasonable, but if you people only knew how frustrating it is and how embarrasing, and how not being able to cope makes you feel....I guess im writting this to "again" look for help and answers. I remember about 7 yrs ago feeling ok...I was told i was hyperactive when i was in the 3rd grade by a child psychiatrist. I've asked my mother if she'd mind writting about what I was like growing up, to give to the psychiatrist. Im f'n trying, but Im sick and tired of being sick and tired. btw, im 48yrs old man.