BionicMike

Hello, I am Michael. I am 6'5" 300lbs and rapidly falling. I have been diagnosed with many things and I'm happy that I am no longer under a doctor's... read more

Hello, I am Michael. I am 6'5" 300lbs and rapidly falling. I have been diagnosed with many things and I'm happy that I am no longer under a doctor's direct care regarding some of them. I do however deal with about 10 current diagnoses and am giving everything I have to get better and fulfill all of my other responsibilities to my family, work, myself, etc. My various psychiatric issues have been mostly managed well. I've been through 8 months of DBT and I've learned all about distress tolerance and impulse control. I'm able to get through a serious crisis without falling into target behaviors. Since 27 years of age, I sought out help for a life long problem with depression. As I, and my healthcare providers, began to figure out the situations I became to understand myself as a person living with some adverse mental health symptoms which have and still lead to some distressing and unwanted behaviors. The diagnoses I've been told apply to me have been confronted head on. I have serious physical issues as I am disabled as of less than 2 months ago by a serious by crippling pain in all of my joints except my mid and lower spine. I am dealing with a lot of crises at the moment and will be reaching out for help and helping others as both will help me improve. I'm managing right now, barely and I apologize if I am harsh. Living in new and very difficult pain, I am still adjusting. Being harsh though doesn't mean I don't believe my words completely, it just means maybe the presentation isn't ideal. I'm actually quite peaceful but when I feel sick, I try in everyway I can to make myself get better and part of that is advocating for myself and others I believe are going through similar experiences and don't have a voice strong enough to make the difference they would prefer to have. The world changes one act at a time. Thanks, Michael