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I'm a pharmacy technician state certified.I have a 21 yr old son,a 15 yr old daughter.I had a total knee replacement so now i'm looking for work &... read more

I'm a pharmacy technician state certified.I have a 21 yr old son,a 15 yr old daughter.I had a total knee replacement so now i'm looking for work & you would think i could find it but it hasn't happened.I like to help people & love to meet new poeple.I live with a alcholic that has abused me for 18 years.He was really strict with my son from my 1st marriage with dicipline.Our daughter got the same.I've left alot,prest alot of charges,even put him in jail.When i could make it one my own i thought he changed & then when i was being evicted i had to keep my kids warm.Plus he went to classes & AA.Then you finaly figure out he's going to be that person forever.Now i'm just afraid but he always verbaly abuses me.In Aug. he hit my daughter for the 1st time we brought a social worker in & they found him guilty.He has to go to conseling + achocol,he won't do either.He said if they found a free one for anger but he was lying.We have insurance it would be 15.00 but of course he's the only 1 working.Hes not alot to touch he but he says if she deserves it he don't care.I have a secret phone now so i can call the police.My mom said everyone was praying for me & i prayed every night.I brought this on my self by my decisions.It's been 4 years now i can't find a free divorce,i've tried all the places.He said he won't leave till she's 18 & we can't take it that long.We've already looked into battered women shelters.So now i'm just watching over her & becoming a empty shell.My 21 yr old son is here but he's moving out in Jan. but he helps around here very little because "he has a job".My daughter listens very little whitch is finaly making me shut down i can't take any more.She has nothing more to take away it's either,broke,stolen,disconected because she's grounded.It's more her attituide when she's told to do something.To tell him anything would make things very worse.