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Updated 10/12/11 I am on .5mg suboxone and .5mg of klonopin. I have been able to ween down the klonopin from 4mg to .5mg a day in about 3 months.... read more

Updated 10/12/11 I am on .5mg suboxone and .5mg of klonopin. I have been able to ween down the klonopin from 4mg to .5mg a day in about 3 months. I have been on subs since 2009 and have been abusing opiates since 1985. I got off the subs slowly in april and did well. I relapsed on oxys and went back to 2mg of subs. I always craved and feel I never gave subs a chance. I did rehab too many to count and many 30 day programs, prison, aa,na,therapy, moved and antidepressants. I relapsed last week on heroin and passed out and woke up + hours later. I feel I need to up the subs to 4 to 8 mgs. I have a good doctor, therapist and support but I keep decreasing my subs. When I do take the 4mg I basically do fine. I get insomnia and lack of motivation but the alternative for me is heroin and I never thought I would touch it. So for now I am here and need your and support. I am afraid and feel I do need to take it one day at a time. I noticed in September early that my motivation was zapped and in the morning I couldnt wake up without taking the suboxone. Has anyone noticed this. I was able to wean slowly to .5mg of suboxone a day and my energy is up and my motivation is coming back. I feel like the subs put me in a fog but also did save my life. I feel pretty good on this amount and I would say if I have to stay at this amount I am fine with this.