I have Bipolar Disorder and Social anxiety that I've been treated for 24 years. I take Nardil an (MAO Inhibitor) for the depression and Social Anxiety. Klonipin for Anxiety and take Lamictal and Seroquel... read more
I have Bipolar Disorder and Social anxiety that I've been treated for 24 years. I take Nardil an (MAO Inhibitor) for the depression and Social Anxiety. Klonipin for Anxiety and take Lamictal and Seroquel for the Bipolar Disorder and a low dose of Inderal for hand tremors due to the medications. Although in retrospect I now know my social anxiety began in 4th grade it didn't manifest severely until I was 19yrs. old. I had such a sense of shame and humiliation that I didn't tell anyone for several years. It affected my whole life. I avioded as many "social situation's"as possible. I couldn't work, lost contact with many friends, and began having difficulty leaving my apartment. Example- I'd go to the grocery store with such fear to deal with the checker that I'd have anxiety attacks my whole body shaking and turning red. I'd feel trapped spilling my change and literally just ran out a couple times. I knew my reactions were irrational but I didn't know what was wrong with me and I thought I was the only person in the world that suffered from this un-named beast. When I finally got help and treatment it was a lifesaver to be able to work again and feel a sense of belonging in society! I know now that there are many people out there that also have suffered and still do from extreme social anxiety. I am free from that extent of suffering and have minimal overt symptoms of SA. Although, it comes out in full force when I go into episodes of severe depression. Bipolar Disorder manifested in my early 20's with episodes of Mania w/ delusions and psychosis and many hospitalizations before I started taking my medication religiously everyday. I have been hospital free since 2002 and feel so grateful for all the help and support I've gotten along the way. Though I still cycle and go through periods where I get to ill to work, for the most part I'm doing quite well. More recently (about a year and a half) I've unfortunately gotten addicted to Vicodin. I am just updating my profile again, today 09/29/13 because of this addiction and seeking help to wean myself off. The support groups on this site have been so helpful to me. I've found everyone to be so kind and caring with each other. I am also here to support and help individuals with their struggles as well. I want to share and hopefully help people that I can with issues that I have knowledge of by experience with. I've been helped and supported so much on this site that I want to be of service to others as well.read less
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