I'm feeling very down and alone. I have gone through this every October for the last 20 years. I lost 2 of the most important people in my life during this month. My grandpa passed 20 years ago on the second from cancer (I was a complete mess yesterday) and my uncle passed 17 years ago on the 26th due to complications from MS. And to top it off my birthday is the 25th. My father was a very abusive alcoholic my whole life. My uncle and my grandpa were wonderful to me. They stepped up and filled the fatherly role that my own father didn't. I was young when they passed (9 and 12) but the pain never goes away. I miss them more than words can ever describe. I'm just hoping for some supportive words and a little love to get me through this rough month. Thank you all for being there. Key.