Im 23 years old and i've been abusing hydro's,narcos,morphines,and ultram for the past 5-6 years ive tried to quit 1000 times and ONE time in 5-6 years i made it to day five! and i acually felt good! but that day some was offered and i thought i could handle it.Now in the past few years my addiction has gotten worse ive stolen from almost every1 i know ive ruined relationships and am on the verge of losing my family.i have 4 kids and the perfect wife who all know nothing about my addiction.my wife "new" i had a problem after my daughter was born in 2010 when her pain meds came up missing after the birth... needless to say they had been gone she just didnt notice.and i was on like day 2 of withdraws so i was all emotional and i broke down and told her everything.and i said i was quiting... but i never did she just thinks i did... now shes catching me in so many lies and little money missing here and there, bills not being paid while i lie and say i did!! i dunno man,.i know its bad rite now,. so i decided ... finally ive had it... so i thought i would give it one more go at quiting.and since i have no insurance and i have to hide this whole process when im doin it,.then its at home. so i thought i would try getting off pain meds with ultram..i thought hey, this isnt even getting me high but im feeling good so hell i should have no withdraws... wrong there! faster coming an more intense... i took my last to ultrams this morning.and so i went ahead an messed up one of my last conections by gettin 8 -7.5s fronted out.."that i cant pay for" i took them today and went out and got some sleep aids, otc pain meds, vitamens, and some st.johns mood enhancer... and i know the usuall ruteen..but i just wanna know any tips. i was taking like four, 50mg ultrams for like the past 3 weeks.with the ocasinal 70-80mg hydros once a day.maybe 3-4 times in the past 3-4 weeks... soo what i really am asking is day 5 a realistic outlook for me you think?and any tips on the subject,,, and please dont say "tell your wife" she loves me an i know that but I WILL NOT LET HER DOWN AGAIN... i would rather her see me sick as fu3k thinking i got the flu, then knowing all the money and problems weve been having is ALL me. so please leave that out... any support would be nice...