Just started taking desipramine for GAD, but after the first dose anxiety seems to be much worse,?

I did well on Lexapro for 6 or 7 years, and in trying to wean myself off slowly, ran into difficulty and relapsed without being able to get relief from my former dose. Thereafter, I tried Pristiq and Luvox and felt they were too activating. Pamelor more recently made me emotionally labile and so Desipramine was the alternative offered. I have great difficulty adjusting to new meds and have been told that I should use benzo's to help me adjust. I resist using the benzos out of fear of dependence and not liking the tired zoned out feeling. I think my shrink may be losing patience with me as well and I may just give in and use the benzo's along with the desipramine until I give it a fair trial. I wish I new what normal felt like. Last week I was away on a very active vacation I was off all meds and was hardly symptomatic.

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After being home for the past several days, I felt the GAD creeping back so I decided to give the desipramine ( I had left over from a previous trial) a second try. After only two days of taking 25 mg, I feel anxious and a bit depressed. I will see my psychiatritst this Tuesday and am worried about
the response I will get since I took myself off the Pamelor, went without anything and am now back on the Desipramine. Frustrated and most probably frustrating my physician as well.