7 May 2010
I am 30 years old and have been taking a very high amount of Tramadol for the past 3 1/2 years. I have gotten prescriptions from my doctor (400mg per day) which was not enough for me. I found a website who sold Tramadol so I purchased 180 50mg tablets. Still not enough for me... Since the site only sold 180 50mg tablets every two weeks, I also purchased from another site (wow, it is pretty astounding to see how much I've taken, now that I see it typed here).
Well, about four days ago I was without any Tramadol. Partially because of lack of money, partially because I was growing more and more ready to quit and knew I couldn't keep doing this to myself. I have been taking about 750 - 1000 mg of Tramadol daily for at least the past year and a half. I was very nervous to stop cold-turkey. I was afraid that my body wouldn't be able to take it and I would have some real problems, but I've been toughing it out.
The first day I stopped, I talked to someone I knew who had pain meds (hydrocodone) and got him to give me four, which got me through that day. The next day, I had none. I had to work. It was a mess. I could not sleep for more than 30 minutes at a time the whole night before. Nothing could calm the nerves. The second night, I could maybe sleep about 45 minutes to an hour and a half at a time. The third night, the same thing. Tonight will be the fourth night. Surprisingly, I am doing ok (JUST ok) but feel like I can keep going. I could easily go to the doctor tomorrow and get a refill. Who knows, when the morning comes, I may just do that... I hope not.
I've had to tell everyone at work that I am really sick with allergies, just to try and explain why I am so out of it compared to my normally energetic (high) self. My underarms sweat profusely. I have had to bring a couple backup undershirts and wear a hooded jacket inside, telling everyone I think it's cold in there to keep people from seeing the massive amounts of persperation under my arms. I sneeze five, six times in a row about every other hour. I have been taking anti-diahhreal medication to keep that discomfort at bay.
All in all, its been definitely very difficult, but I think now that I have a few days under my belt (which is by far the longest I've gone in years) without Tramadol or other pain med, I have a good head start to keep going. Its only been a few days tho, and I will be realistic about my chances.
This stuff is terribly easy to get a hold of, and terribly addicting.
Whatever I can do to close down these online pharmacies, I'm ready to help!