I have adult ADD and take Adderall. It's helped with my attention span, motivation and focus and as an added bonus my social anxiety too. On the other hand it wears off and I still feel like I deal with depression and anxiety and have now for years when I'm honest with myself. I am wondering if maybe Effexor could help me but I've read you can't take the two together. So I'm a little afraid to give up the Adderall. Hence the subject of this post.
Some background on me. My depression started about 10 years ago. I'm 36. At 26 I was diagnosed with IBS. At 28 started developing problems with anxiety and was put on Paxil. I completely lost my sex drive and I gained 25lbs in 4 months. The rapid weight gain made me feel worse, so I stopped it and was now afraid to take any antidepressants. Shortly after I started having insomnia, which eventually turned into unrestorative sleep. In other words 10 hours felt like 2 hours of sleep. Every morning I was exhausted. At 31, I was diagnosed with stage 3 endometriosis and had surgery to remove it along with 3 large fibroids. Felt a little better, lost 10lbs but my anxiety just continued to get worse. I started to experience joint and muscular pain ( mainly in my upper back and shoulders.) At 33 I got pregnant with twins and overall my mood and anxiety improved quite a bit with the pregnancy. I was not in as much pain physically either but still had unrestorative sleep.
Less than a month after giving birth, I totally crashed. First I rapidly lost all my pregnancy weight plus 10lbs more in less then 2 months. I was as thin as I was in my early 20's (I'm actually not complaining about that part.) My joints were stiff and achey and every muscle in my body hurt. I was so tired I could hardly function. After a routine checkup, my bloodwork came back positive for Mono. Mono at 35? (and taking care of newborn twins.) I was sorta shocked. My doctor said it would take a month or two to recover. But I never did. Worse I became this super irritable person and experienced these intense emotional outbursts. I was always a little moody but I almost felt out of control now. I wasn't really weepy but I felt depressed and super angry My whole life had changed and I was not dealing well at all with it. Worse I felt intense guilt, sadness and shame over these feelings. Wasn't I supposed to be happy? Although I loved my girls intensely, I felt so alone. My girls also had colic so they cried 24/7 for almost 5 months, it was a very difficult experience. It actually took me over 6 months and therapy to realize and admit I had postpartum depression. Therapy helped a lot and soon it was like a fog lifting. I began to mentally feel less angry and the outbursts stopped completely but I could not shake this melancholy. Physically though things never improved and this winter I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, Adult ADD and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. I see a therapist who specializes in treating people with Chronic pain conditions. Some days are worse then others but I am always in pain. My anxiety especially socially got worse, which made me feel even more isolated, insecure and depressed. Savella has done nothing for me, Adderall at least gives me energy, helps with the brain fog and my concentration and even the pain a little. Surprisingly to me it also helps with my social anxiety too. But I'm ready to deal head on with my depression and anxiety. Hey if I am going to be in constant pain I might as well be semi-happy if I can. My girls deserve a happy mom.