4 Dec 2010
I am on chantix for 25 days now, the fist 8 days I continued smoking regularly but started to feel that I am smoking it just because anyway I am going to quit soon, not because I really wanted it. Day 9 was for me to stop completely, what helped me though is that my husband and I went on a vacation for 10 days, which helped me change the routines associated with smoking. However, the first 3 days were hell to me, I kept craving every 2 or 3 minutes. I felt down, I would cry for whatever I might not like, I couldn't tolerate my husband, especially that he was the one who would stand in my way to have even one puff. The 4th day started to getting less irriated, the 5th even better, the 7th much better... but God.. I do miss it. The 8th I sneaked and smoked one cigarette, which to my surprise didn't taste the same.. but wasn't bad anyway! the 9th and 10th went fine and started to forget about it and enjoy my time. Now time to go back home, I thought I am stronger now.
The minute I got home, the cravings got back to me very strongly since everything here is associated with a cigarette. The torture continued 3 days after which I started cooling down. Today is Saturday, 15 days now, I still think of it, but cravings faded drastically since monday.
I have never ever thought I would be ever able to quit cold turkey. I quit before for 6 months on Nicotine Patchs, I wasn't tortured as much because Nicotine was still getting into my system, but couldn't completely stop before 3 months. I was still having 1-2/day, than gradually to 2-3/week, than to 1 every once in a while until I was completely out of it.
why I got back to smoking? because I thought if I could do it once, I can do it anytime, it took me 7 years to be able to stop again, although I tried many times with patchs again, but no longer worked with me, until I got chantix. Yes with Chantix sometimes I am being tortured, but I am being able to do my part too, which is resisting cravings. And I know now at least that quitting is not an easy job, and I know now that am not going to live that again..
Long story, but it might help those who would think that quitting smoking is impossible.