I have had anxiety followed by depression since I was about 8 years old. I've attempted to commit suicide 3 times. Yet, I've never been admitted into a hospital. I have seen numerous counselors and therapists and all of them listen to my life stories in aw but never have much of a solution. I lead toward medications now. I have only been prescribed to zoloft in a high dose. One day I was extremely irritated .. panicking and unsure what to do or where to turn. I took 38 of my pills a few at a time.. looking for a cure. I regretted taking them and made a phone call to my sister when my hands cramped up. Since, I haven't taken any drugs. Lately I have been very panicky and unsure what steps to take and or what drugs to look into .. any advice?
3 Mar 2011
Hi, I know how you hurt inside and their are no answers at times. I thought of killing myself a few times. The only thing I can tell you that helped me is If i did that I would hurt alot of people in my life. You need to fine out what is making you hurt so much that you wanted to end your life and than go from there. There is abegining to all hurt and I know in my case it was from issues I had with my mother.Through therapy and my family and a good doctor I have come to terms with my mother. The answers are there you just have to find them.It took me many years to know why my mother was the way she was and I understand now. It still hurts but now I can deal with it. I am lucky to have the support that I do from my therapist and now I am weening off the effexor. It is hard but I want off this stuff. The doctor who put me on it never told me how bad it could be getting off of it. I have problems with people and trust issues which of course stem back to my child hood.
Please don't harm youself. I know you don't know me, but I will talk to you anytime you are feeling down. I know just talking to others about my problems has really helped me. Get a good doctor one you can trust and that will be there for you. take care and remember you are not alone even though you think you are. take care
3 Mar 2011
I understand your dilemma and encourage you to seek medical advice from a qualified psychiatrist. I, also, recommend you seek talk therapy. I have suffered from depression all my life, as far back as I can remember (and that is a long time indeed, lol). I have tried to commit suicide many times and thank God I was unsuccesful. I take several medications now, and am very happy and stable. I also benefit from talk therapy.
Please do not take an overdose of antidepressant again, the results can be life damaging without the results you think at the time you want. Suicide is not the answer to your problems, it will only make it worse, honest.
You may well benefit from medication. Please seek the advice of a qualified doctor, being sure to explain your suicidal tendencies. It is very important to be completely honest with the doctor. I can't recommend any particular drugs because I don't know you, only a doctor can do that.
I am here for you if you need someone to talk to. I'll friend you and you can talk to me in private, if you wish,
3 Mar 2011
I can identify where you find yourself. You are not alone. My suggestion is to seek psychiatric hospitalization or at least a partial program if you have insurance that would cover it. It's the best way to arrive at a medication regimine that will stabilize you plus the benefit of intensity of therapy. Good luck to you!
4 Mar 2011
I was on a drug for these problems later in life but think I should have been put on a drug to help with the anxiety & stress I have suffered from all my life possibly because I was one of triplets also my mother had 5 other children as well to look after.
when we were growing up,life for me was stressful & as I got older I went into job's that were high pressured jobs which then made me get depressed leading to cronic anxiety & stress so when I had a mental break down in 2003 due to job pressures the doctor put me on Zoloft which at first was a life saver. However sadly after 3 years this drug was not helping the anexiety & stress then 7 years on with all the negative side effects, anxiety & stress once again was out of control making my health deteriorate so much my doctor was very concerned she told me I had to withdraw from Zoloft slowly over a period of weeks then to start on Pristiq which is better on your body !
So far the 50 mg I am taking has had a positive affect.Please visit a site for more imformation on these drugs especially Zoloft it is www.theroadback.org it helped me understand so much about withdrawal off drugs also if you wish to know more there is a email address to send them any questions you need to know about,be assured the counsellors working online will then contact you with their advice , so please give it a go ,these people know what they are talking about ! good luck, god bless Candypq
4 Mar 2011
I too have suffered from many suicide attempts. I have been unsuccessful many tmes but almost succeeded once I was actually pronounced dead at one time but I found out it wasn't worth it. I alo believe you should try and see if you have insurance about being checked in to a good psychiatric hospital that is usually the best way to get stabilized on the right medicines and to find the best outpatient counselor which the hospital usually helps with after in-patient treatment. I have also turned to my pastor at times, if you are involved in a church that sometimes helps as well, it always helps to have a outside support system as well. Please don't try to overdose again it can cause permanent damage that you will have to live with and that would make life even harder for you. Please feel free to private message me at anytime and I will be there for you as much as I can I have been there my friend and it i not easy to go it alone good luck and I will be praying and thinking about you, marjorie zych
7 Mar 2011
Hi Melissa, Oh I have been down your road many times. I completely understand. I have the same problems. Sorry it took so long to answer, I have also added you as a friend ok. Hun there is no cure for what we have, I'm sorry. Yes pill SOMETIMES help. This is a very good forum to be on to start if you have any questions or may want to help other people out as well. First of all, doctors are suppose to start you on low mg of any pill first not at a high dose, that was not right of him. I'd talk to him again. For me I don't like Prozac but it is a good drug but can give side effects like a personal one and if you were on a high dose it made me feel that I coulds not cry at all anymore. I was like blah I get not a bad blah tho. But sometimes we need to cry. A drug I would look into for your depression is Cymbalta, don't worry about what you here about getting off of it, we want to try it first, ask about it first.
I am on that drug and it does wonders for my depression and anxiety and I think it also help my pain a little. Remember low mg at first maybe 30 mg then 60. The normal does to start is 60. My doctor was good... was cause he left:( but I got an increase from my new one for the pain. Sorry anyway another drug maybe welbutrin, a very long time ago it caused me to have terrible nightmares, but when I took it last year it did not. Zoloft is a good drug again for depression and anxiety but again does have side effects as usual. I swear it make me gain weight. but I was able to still cry if needed to. Klonopin is a very good drug for anxiety. For me it s not habit forming. Please dont take xanax. Abilify as an add on drug to an antidepressent is good, low dose only as the add on. This drug Does contain sugar... if you have diabetes you can not take this drug, ok. It also may make you gain weight because of the sugar in it. I'm on that too. Melissa I had many doctors in my life and many hospital stays... more than you mentioned. Umm Good therapists are hard to find, but if you find a good one try to stick with that one unless they leave you can't do anything about that. I have my last session soon. She is very nice, oh I find it easier to talk to a woman because some very private stuff comes up that you can only speak to a woman. Well I think thats all for now. Please feel free to add me as a friend and ask me a private question anytime, I will be glad to help you. Doin this will get your mind free. I wish you well... Erica
7 Mar 2011
I understand that it seems hopeless, if you have depression, anxiety, panic or aggoraphobia these are things that make you wonder if things will ever get better but you have to remember read this site, once you look at some of the things other people have to cope with it makes it easier to deal with, I have Chronic Pain, I thought they would never come to a point where I would find someone that would really understand but I am fortunate, there are many people on here that have very similar problem, there are such drugs as Celexa, Pristiq, Wellbutrin, Xanax, Valium, and many others they alone or in combination work together to make things get better, also its always good to find a good counselor or psychiatrist, you find that finding someone that will listen and talk with you also if you get a tablet and just journal what you feel you will note when you have positive days and when you have some not so good days,
keeping a journal will help the doctor help you, I know it seems worthless but to be very honest it will help more than you know
we are always here if you need someone to talk to you can always count on some of us.
7 Mar 2011
Hi Melissa, I have been down that road a few times. Souds like your medicine is not working. If you have been having depression since you were 8, I think that you should be follow by a psychiatrics for meds and a psychologist for therapy. I had 3 depressions, 2 of them major and now I have to stay on medicine for the rest of my life. The more depressions you have the deper they get. I am on Lithium and Manerix since 2007 and it's working. The last time I got depressed a psychiatricts prescribed me Seroquel and I went had a psychoatic episode. I was hospitalised for 6 months until they found the right meds for me. If you go in the hospital, you will be monitered closely and the doctors can see how meds work for you. I know in Canada where I am, you have to be in danger to yourself or someone else before you can be admitted to hospital for depression. It may not be what you want but if you go it might be the last time that you go through all this.
That would be nice eh? Just a thought. I don't know were you live and what kind of insurance you have. All I know you need help and support. You have a lot of support here with your friends that care about you. You are not alone. Alot of us have gone through this. I will friend you if you want to ask a private question. smileyhappy
8 Mar 2011
Sorry you're having such a hard time, please look for a really good psycologist, someone who will start you on some medications that are more effective for you, sometimes that takes patience on your part also, the Doctor may have to add an additional med with the zoloft to bump it up, or take you off completely and try a new one. Don't give up though, talking about what is going on it the best, and that also can take time, energy, and you need to take it one small step at a time. I know exactly how you are feeling, you're not alone in this, just tell yourself each day, you can do this~ You will, however long this may take, you are a worthwhile person, and you deserve to be happy. Suicide is a permanant solution to a temporary problem, it will take a lot of hard work on your side also, keep all your appointments regardless of how awful you may be feeling, don't give up on YOU! OK! this is workable, I will pray for you, and will be thinking of you always, please take care OK let us all know how you're doing, my best to you today and always.
4 Apr 2011
Obviously everyone is different, but I've also experienced depression and anxiety since a very early age. I had my first suicidal thoughts around age 8, and attempted 3 times as a teenager. I'm an RN with anxiety, depression, Lupus and Fibromyalgia. I've worked as a psych nurse, and my own experiences are very helpful in assisting my patients. Absolutely get yourself back to the doctor. If possible, see a psychiatrist for medication rather than a general practioner (GP). Zoloft may not have been the correct medication for you, or you may require a combination of meds. For maintenace treatment of the anxiety and depressions meds with or without therapy is usually best. Therapy CAN be very beneficial in helping you figure out the best ways for you to help manage your anxiety and depression, such as exercise, support groups, hobbies, etc.
It sounds like you were experiencing a panic attack the day you took too much Zoloft. Xanax, Buspar and several other meds are very helpful for severe, immediate panic attacks and anxiety. Talk to your doctor, and tell him or her that, in addition to antidepressants you need something fast acting for panic attacks to take ONLY when necessary. Buspar usually isn't addicitve, but Xanax, Valium and some other meds can be. That said, they're still very effective for short-term relief of severe anxiety as long as you don't take them frequently. If you're doctor and you get you on the right dose and/ or combination of antidepressants, you should only need something for severe anxiety on an occasional basis.
Don't give up. It's important that you be optimistic, call your doctor, and take active management of your condition. Good luck!!
21 Aug 2011
Dearest Melissa, I too am going through a hard time. I suffer terribly from depression and anxiety/panic attacks. So i guess you could say I can relate you to. But not entirely of course. Because everyone is different. But I would say we are pretty close in our problems and feelings.
My advice is as follows; Seek medical help and psychiatry help. Right now you are a warrior in the middle of a great battle. Not a battle of flesh and blood. But a battle 'psychologically'. Do whatever you can to win! If you kill yourself, that would make you a quitter. Also, that's taking the easy way out. Don't be a coward! We all have battles. Some worse than others. If there's a will there's a way! Keep having hope! and eventually, one day, You will succeed! And oh what a glorious day that will be! Remember not to rely "only" on others to help you. Or do the work for you. Try to help yourself and do much as you can to Help yourself get better. Your not a baby anymore. No one is going to "spoon feed" you anymore. You have to feed yourself now. But there is hope and way out of the deep dark hole you are in.
Just grab onto whatever hope you can find and never let it go!
Sincerely, Sven =)
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