... inside to the point of blowing up! I suffer from chronic back/hip pain and take kadian 60mg 2xday. I am just so mad and angry at everyone around me. I have no patience at all and at time just feel like smashing whatever I can get my hands on. I try to explain this to the dr. but with all the drs I have seen to try and fix my back they all seem to disreguard it. They all say I'm depressed. I don't really feel like I have anything to be happy about. I can't work anymore because it causes so much pain. I think I would be better off all alone. I have 3 kids, 16, 14, & 12. I am engaged but I'm probably messing that up because I am so mean anymore. I am tired of being miserable all the time. Please someone respond, I will answer any ? or info I may have left out. I don't seem to get anywhere with the dr. so I thought advice here would maybe help. thx in advance
Anxiety and Stress - What are the signs of a nervous breakdown? I feel like I am slowly boiling?
- Posted:
- 2 May 2010 by yayablondie
- Topics:
- kadian, anxiety, pain, generalized anxiety disorder, anxiety and stress
Responses (5)
2 May 2010
yayablondie you gotta try to go easy,i get like that sometimes angry about my condition having other problems, but what always bring me to a reality check is that; who will watch my kids if i lose it!! so review each situation one at a time if you cant solve it, put it on a shelf until you come back to it to only make a decision about what o do with it, but it cannot consume you why? because the kids need you.do not rush to do anything at this point take your time while you monitor your anger...
2 May 2010
Hey, I am sorry for your pain and other problems. I hate to even mention this as it sounds like you do need your pain medicine, but, sometimes narcotics can produce the symptoms you are having. The fact that you have basically 3 teenagers is also a trigger. I am not sure what the answer will be for you, but I would sit my 3 teenagers and my fiance down and let them know that you realize you are not yourself anymore, but, that you are working on it. It is also possible you are depressed somewhat and may suffer from something called anhedonia ( the lack of pleasure) but you have figured out some of the things bothering you that you would like to fix, and that is a start. I realize you have some physical pain issue, but, if there is any type of exercise that you can do, walking, or even just some regular stretching may help somewhat. You will want to be very careful and try not to cause any more pain. You may need a physical therapist to work with you and your doctor to do this.
3 May 2010
It is kimmie1 here again. You gotta get it together girl. I know it's very hard to live in chronic pain. I do it everyday. Some days are better than others and you will have a good one soon. It's your turn. At least your kids are old enough to help care for themselves but they need there mom too. I have been there and done that. We are all here for you. Remember think pain free... This to shall pass...
3 May 2010
i can totally relate to you in so many ways. i have chronic pain and they finally did a mri and found gallstone. i have to have it removed. it has taken months i mean months to figure that out. i was put in a nut house for three days cuz it drove me so crazy.i went in there vomitting and couldnt even walk. i had bottomed out. they put me back on a antidepressant and klnipin for my panic disorder which pain intensifies. it helped alot. stretching and sleeping witn a heating pad help. i also see a chiropractor. now im on loritab till they take my gall out. so i have to deal with coming off pain pills being a attic and im still in fear that it may not whats causing the pain. i know its hard. try not to focus on it so much pray that god leads yot. u to the right doctor to help find out what the problm is. also what are your symtoms. of pain. exacly where is it at. it will get better. i have two kids im 24 and all the meds they have me on plus the pain i fear will run off my fiance.
My pain began in my back, between my shoulder blades,( I posted a ? about that on the back pain page) a long time ago. My hands fall asleep mostly at night in bed. In Aug '09 my right hip began bothering me, at first they said bursitis but they were wrong, that has progressivly gotten much worse. In Feb. '10 my lower back started hurting really bad and the pain went down my right leg but stopped at the knee. I've been trying to walk more and do stretching exercises when I can.
3 May 2010
It sounds like you are very frustrated more than angry actually, if you had a little more support from your doctor that would probably help. Alot of doctors take the easy way out and say depression so they don't have to listen to it. I went through so many doctors because of that. I now have an excellent doctor and she doesn't hesitate to listen and take her time with me. She sees the patient as a whole not just a problem. I agree though I think you should find a therapist that deals with chronic pain and the frustration/anger that goes with it, I know it helpd me alot to have the extra support. Is you family supportive? I know it's hard sometimes for kids especially those ages to understand, they want you right there the minute they snap their fingers but they need to understand mom is not doing well right now.
I know I should go to a therapist, I feel funny about it and like it's admitting that the pain is all in my head rather that physical. Plus, I don't want to go to a local one, I'd be embarrassed if people saw my car there... small town & everyone wants to know everyones business. Plus, I don't really like talking alot, thats why I really like this site. It makes it alot easier. My fiance is very supporative and he is being very patient with me. My kids try to understand and they do for the most part. They too have a lot to deal with, their father lives in the same town and won't even see them unless by accident if they bump into him. He won't see them for 6 months and then just appear back in their lives. My 16 yr old finally told him either be a dad or leave us alone for good, so far he has left them alone. My fiance loves my kids like they are his own, it has just been hard dealing with accepting their biological dad is a dead-beat...
I still need to add you as a friend, like I said on the back pain ? page.
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Thanks. I will check into some of the things you've suggested. I have been trying to walk more and get outside since the weather is getting nicer. I get out often to watch my kids play sports. I am trying harder to relax but it is still hard at times. I have a hard time talking about my problems, I think thats why I was drawn to this sight, it is easier to talk, etc here. I was suprised when I had people comment, it made me feel better.