I need advice regarding depression?

Hi Tee. I'm sorry that you are feeling so low,of course,I've been in those low depths of hell myself,obviously, or I would'nt be answering this question.Or rather, I should say, just trying to offer some comfort to you.I read your bio as it seemed that maybe you were no stranger to the community,and that helped me to see both some of your past issues,and sort of let me know what you are dealing with,as a normal part of your life.Our childhoods were different and yet in so many ways the same.I see that you are dealing with Fibromyalgia as well,which is such a difficult thing for even the mildest case,but it seems you have it in the most extreme form.I am not sure if,when you refer to the pain,if you are talking about the physical pain or the mental and emotional pain,or both.

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I'll just say this... I'll bet, that you have answered this very question you are asking, on this very site,likely multiple times.You know that these head meds can stop working,or need some extra tweaking,or a new med added.I know that you take a whole lot of meds for various issues,and the thought of having to add more, or even worse, go through the process of finding a new cocktail for the depression is probably partly to blame for you feeling this way too.But seems to me that when all those meds are working you deal extremely well with your life,both past and present.I'm 52 as well,so I know that part of being able to deal comes from life and our experiences.I came from a family who did not want me,and never failed to let me know that I had been an "accident". One I might add that my mother tried to get rid of several times during the first 8 years of my life.I was blessed with a brother,but mother did'nt want him either.Unfortunately,he did'nt make it through babyhood.And i saw what happened to him,how he died.These things made for a torturous childhood,that I admit I have not added details to my bio.But,all those things helped form the strong person that I would become,Oh, there are times when I feel so incredibly weak,but no longer self medicate,or punish myself for the faults of those who were supposed to love and care for me. Instead, I became a mother that my 2 daughters could and can depend on,and who will love them until the end of my life,and they KNOW that.For so many years they WERE my life.I suspect the same can be said for the relationship between you and your child.Dwell on her,and remember that she will have memories of these years.I'm sure that you have always done your utmost to make her life everything that yours was not.One day,she will love you all the more because she will know all of the things that you have dealt with in your life, but still made her feel like she was the most important purpose in your life.Please remeber that this extreme low IS transient,it IS a passing thing, You will NOT feel this way forever.Hold on to those things,all the things I've talked about as that will help to get you through,each second,of every minute,of every hour,of every day,one day at a time.I guess there is no chance of getting in to see your dr any sooner?? If that even might be a dream of a possibility,give it a shot.Just give a call and see if you can get in.What would it hurt?? This IS a good place to come is'nt it? It's great to be able to feel good enough to try to help someone else,but it also is comforting, to know that we have somewhere to go and others can totally get what we are saying... or NOT saying.I know it's hard,and it's hard to say it to you too,but... Be Strong for you and for your family.Wishing you peace in your mind and in your heart,tejas129

My Dearest Tee, so sorry to hear you are suffering! However,you have made the first step to feeling better: reaching out for support. As you know, I have extensive experience with anti-depressants I've tried many of them. All I can tell you is I am now on Cymbalta 120mg per day. Of all the meds I am on, this one really seems to help me. You know my situation with my disorder and how frustrated and sad it can make me. But I don't seem to wallow in the deep black pit anywhere near as much as I have before, over lesser matters. The Cymbalta seems to help me stay balanced and it also has a pain relieving component that's an extra bonus. I have been on it for close to a year and even wih everything I am going through, my depression is under control. Of course I have my bad days, but I don't get stuck in it like I used to.

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I know how hard it is to deal with daily, excruciating pain and then feel guilty because you can't function the way you want to. I had a friend suggest that I check to see if my insurance would cover massage therapy and I think that may help. I know for a fact that visualization and relaxaion exercises are helpful, call me and I'll share some techniques with you. Unfortunately I haven't found a med that works without adding other strategies like counseling, good, solid support from people who can relate, and many, many prayers!!! Remember, you are not alone in this. God is with you, holding your hand and stroking your hair, trying to comfort you as much as you let him. I know he is going to put people on your path to help and comfort you--don't let them go unnoticed! Tee, I really wish I could reach across the miles and take your pain away. But remember, there are so many people who love and need you (like me!) and don't get sucked into the pit of hopelessness. I know we are all praying for you and something good is going to happen! If you are still up, call me, I'll be up for awhile. If not please call me tomorrow when you get up. Tee, keep your chin up, you are a strong, beautiful woman of grace and dignity, I know you can get through this. Remember I am here day or night and would love to hear from you! Wishing you peace, comfort and serenity, Lisa Z.

I am a bit new here, been on the sight since August, i as well suffer from a host of mh issues which i am under psychiatric care for and have been since 1999, in my opinion it sounds like the Celexa is not working for u anymore or you need to have something added! If I read correctly the highest strength is 40 mg, have u ever taking abilify?? hit comment to respond to this message if u like!!

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Abilify is an antipsychotic medication that when added with a antideppresant it enhances the antideppresant and helps it to work better, if u haven't tried this I would talk to the doctor about it, sure worth a try in my opinion... psych. meds are trial and error, if one don't work u have to go to the next till you find the combo that works for u! I wish u nothing but happiness and hope u get some relief soon, but I would talk to the doc if I were u about adding the abilify, as it does help of course all meds have side effects, but they have to list that to cover themselves that doesn't mean that it's going to happen, so don't read to much into things like i use to and still do..lol Good Luck and God Bless You in your time of need

To all of you special people on this board-- I wanted to let you know I am going to be taking a break for awhile in order to get my life in order. I just wish I had a advocate who could come and list my daily needs to get to the orderly point...
Tax return in 2011 sent me to the web shopping for a clothing line to sell on Ebay. After a explosion of compulsive shopping, I'm left with a store in my home and no experience to sell. I've tried Ebay and couldn't focus on the steps and sent out wrong item, posted the wrong picts. of the wrong items.. etc.. I need to clean up my mess and help supplement our very low income and get to feeling settled inside.
Before I can help anyone else, I need to hep myself, just as we all do. So with that I want any of you to contact me if you want to stay in touch during my transition. I want to stay with you all but need this month or 2 months to get this taken care of.

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I didn't want to just drop off the board without explaining and without expressing my need to keep in contact with those who find yourselves needing a friend or a sounding board. I'll still be here but not responding unless you message me.
I will be back and with a clearer mind. And do message if you want. I want that to continue.
All my heart... Janet