25 Year Old Female addicted to Adderall, Dexetrine, Opiates, Valium. WHY? What do I do?

There are also some outpatient clinics around as well as therapists who specialize in addiction and AA and NA groups. Look up the Thomas Recipe here on the drugs.com forum and call some health food stores to see if they stock it already in a kit or just the ingredients. Enlist at least 1 friend or loved one who can be trusted, perhaps someone who has been addicted to something and gotten clean and also, talk to a doctor. You can put suboxone into your search bar and find doctors in your area who are licensed to prescribe it and I would do the same thing with methadone and read the posts here in the methadone and suboxone groups and really think about what is best for you. This is also where the therapist and doctor come in. AA and NA are annonymous and you can attend a meeting and talk to someone there and get some valuable feedback.

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No one wakes up one day and decides to self medicate, there are issues that make you want to kill or reduce the pain and a therapist and support group can help you sort it all out and figure out what to tackle first and how to keep you comfortable, sane and functioning. We are here also and many people are like you here and will be happy to chat and support you. I am going to say some Prayers for you. Know you are not alone and that you have already taken the first step in stopping all the unhealthy masking of the other issues.

The reason you are addicted is that you are an addict and you were born that way. That part is NOT your fault. And doctors either let people suffer horrendously because of liability issues or dole out pills like they are going out of style. We are an over-medicated nation, IMO. You are obviously very, very responsible, because you are acknowledging something that many people never acknowledge, even when it leads them into the grave. You can get sober. You already took the first step, which is identifying the problem. Now, you have to decide if you want to go in somewhere and tackle all these things at once or do it outpatient. A lot of people truly cannot go check in somewhere. If you want to do it outpatient, you have to keep your eye on the prize and the problem. You have to exercise huge discipline.

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First, start recording what you are taking everyday, even if you haven't started getting off stuff yet. You need to see an honest record of what you're taking and this will help a good doctor minimize your discomfort while he/she gets you off this stuff. I personally agree that you need to start Suboxone therapy. This will get you off the opiates. Once you are stabilized on Suboxone, you can quit the uppers. You will experience some withdrawals, but they aren't that bad and the bad part only lasts about 2-3 days. Plan the first few days off to happen over the weekend, preferably a long one. You may actually need the Valium during the withdrawals, but I think you'll see yourself taking less Valium (downer) when you aren't taking the Dexedrine (upper). Again, keep recording your intake. If you can, you can wean off the Dexedrine instead of quitting cold turkey, but you have to be honest about whether you truly can stick with it or whether your disease of addiction will make that too tough. Please remember it doesn't make you a loser or a weak or bad person if you recognize the power of your addiction! Once you are totally stabilized off the uppers, start slowly but surely hacking away at the remaining Valium. GO SLOWLY!! You cannot rush this because it's actually dangerous. You could have seizures. I saw my best friend have a seizure after quitting her Xanax without weaning. There is a 10% rule, where you decrease 10% at a time for as long as you can. I don't know a whole lot about that plan, but I know it has a high success rate. IMO, this is the most logical sequence to getting off the drugs and getting your freedom back. Imagine not having to worry about getting and juggling your pills!! How nice would that be!!!

It would be wonderful if you had someone who could help you stay on track and manage your meds for you. You need someone to give them to you and be your spine when you are feeling weak. You will have days when you feel weak and really want to take some XYZ to make it better. Do you have anyone like this? Also, you need an addiction doctor. Look up someone who specializes in addiction and make sure they are willing to work with you and not just cut you off. Some docs just don't want to deal with it, so they will cut you off, but if you go off all these meds at once, it will be both dangerous and awful. I think it's criminal when a person comes clean with their doctor, and the doctor turns around and just refuses to prescribe and says, "this is not my area, blah, blah, blah." This is assuming you are not at an inpatient place. Going to a rehab is the ideal thing because you will have nothing to focus on or worry about except getting through the detox. The reason I talk about doing it outpatient is because I've known at least five people who didn't stop their pills because they truly could not drop everything to go to rehab. If you can drop everything and go, then GO!!! It's the best investment in *yourself* you could ever make. Maybe that seems cliche, but when you get sober, you will get your whole life back. And you are only 24, so you still have a long life in front of you. You don't have to tell everyone where you are going. It's really only your business. Please just do not beat yourself up. Addiction IS a disease, and you did not ask for it!!

Once you are off everything but the Suboxone, let yourself stay on the Suboxone while you learn to live without the uppers and downers. Going off Sub is really hard, but it's much better to take Sub the rest of your life than to keep taking regular opiates. Sub won't make you high, so you will be sober when you are on the Sub. Keep your eye on that prize. You don't deserve to be chained to all these pills. I really admire your strength and honestly!!

Good Luck,
Cydwayz

TyGeR1984, First of all, let me just say that all of the information you have received on this site is correct, however, if your taking Adderal, there is a reason for it. Getting clean is a wonderful thing to do, but you have other issues that are just as important, and need to be dealt with also. I don't know what your diagnosis is for the Adderal, but I do understand OCD and how it controls your life. imagine waking up every morning and the first thing that you do is clean up your room, then you move on to your living room and dust it for the first time that day. Usually in a 24 hour period, that carpet will get vacuumed at least 5-6 times, the same with all the other chores. Every bodies shoes have to be facing a certain way, you wash and clean out your cars several times a day, and you don't sleep much, because you not only worry about everything that is wrong in your life, but everything that could be wrong in your life and everyone else life that lives with you.

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If some thing gets out of place, it causes you to be extremely agitated. You don't allow your child to eat certain things because of the crumbs that may be left behind. get the picture? That is what OCD does to a persons life, and to people in his life. it's a miserable way to live. The Adderal allows a person to function without going to extremes about everything. You may need to stay with the Adderal. Talk to a doctor about all of your problems. I understand you wanting to get off of opiates or Valium, however, if the Adderal is allowing you to have a life, I would reconsider getting off of it. This drug is life changing in a positive way. Without it, the person I'm talking about would not have much of a life. He would spend every waking hour of his day in a certain routine which if broken, cause a lot of stress for him. This person is very close to me, and I've seen first hand the difference this drug makes in his life. But maybe there is an alternative for it. All I'm saying is, don't disregard the positive effects of Adderal. you will need something to control your behavior whether it be for OCD, ADD, ADHD or whatever it is. Good Luck in your quest for a better life. NIK